Finally i'm posting something..really gonna write something..need somewhere to vent my feelings in the end. the reason why i didnt want to write anything was because i know i am emotional..whenever i'm sad, angry, frustrated or disappointed, i would just throw everything in here. and then a few days later, i know i would regret jotting it down and letting everyone know. it is worse when u r writing about someone u r unhappy about. so i guess i'm not gonna write anything unhappy relating to anybody in my blog (try). so that's rule no. 1 for myself. rule no. 2, cannot only blog about unhappiness, got to be fair to happiness too!
week 2 of my 4th sem is ending, but i feel like i've been here for one month already. i've never had so much stress in the first 2 weeks before. so much cca work to be done, so much to worry about, i was selected because my friend thought i'm responsible, so that add on to my stress because i cannot disappoint her. i have to finish my job fast, making sure committee members are doing their job well, and checking on all the small little details for the event almost everyday. i really didn't know why i agreed to join, regretting ..haiz...this event is far too big for a small-sized committee like us, lack of manpower. but once i got over this, which is in 1 month's time(still 1 more month!!!) i hope i'm going to say it's worth it.
sometimes i really wish i can have a shoulder to cry on (not referring to bf)when i need it..but i'm glad to have msn..to have friends caring for me, sending me messages whenever i seem unhappy. it really helps even though sometimes i did not explain further(coz i do not want to have any regret again) and when i dont feel like explaining, please don't think that it's because u r not important, it's just because i'm too tired at that time or don't wish to mention it. but seriously, i'm grateful for your concern. thanks!
today is my free day(no lecture, no tutorial) but i spent the whole morning, from 8.30 till 2pm trying to kautim the event. yesterday and 2 days ago also spent 5 to 6 hours having meetings to kautim ah..help!already facing phobia with emails, phonecalls, smses and msn messages, actually since holiday already like that..haizz..and then went out to bazaar to find my mum's birthday present, i'm glad i've found what i want, at a reasonable price. then dapao something light for dinner..and here i am..writing my 'first' blog..
sorry for my nagging (fyi, i always feel bad after nagging too much to ppl)
and thanks for reading
more to come..
